i don't feel like you're madly in love with me anymore.

i don't feel like you saved me.

i don't feel you really care anymore.

infact, i think our feelings prolly faded away as time passed. things don't really feel the same anymore. like now, when i feel you looking at me, i'm actually thinking "she must be looking at my flaws and is disgusted by them" or "she must be thinking of how did i even fell in 'love' with such a person?"

i think i was a happier person before. at least i did not find myself crying during bus rides. don't know whats wrong with my eyes recently(i'm not talking about eyebags), the tears flow out freely, even when i'm in public. i find myself in tears whenever i think about what we had gone thru/is going thru, and when i look into your eyes, all i feel is my heartache. i don't even know why. everytime i try to tell you smth, you assume its me&my pms period and then you just don't take what i say seriously. have you ever thought that this(you assuming me and what i say) is making you insensative? you just assume all that i say is not true cuz i'm having my crazy pms and then you brush aside what i told you.

i'm starting to ask myself if all of these is real, is it just infatuation? no, i'm not having my pms now.

"i wanto have a future" makes me think, a lot.

9:25 PM
Yours truly.