Life's a maze, and love is a riddle

Sunday, July 30, 2006

yesterday was the last session of dragon boat. but it was a pretty enjoyable one. -smiles- a couple of things to be sad of:
-no more oogling at guys with big nehsnehs&abs.
-more eye candies.
-no more tanning.

besides that, no more already. hahah. i know im super practicle, but aiya, thats reality. hmmm, acutually. ill miss SOME of the people there too..like, the instructors. edward's my fav! (: teehee -bigGRINNS-

damndamn. i think ill blog again tmr, my parents'll start to nag if i dont go to bed soon. yea, cuz i've got some stuffs to update lah. and i hopr i wont forget them tmr! hardyharhar. sugarcoated dreams to me(:

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY, PRETTY LIZ! love(:

10:02 PM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

darn, today just aint my day. i needa break, ive had a long day, a really tiring&heartaching one. sheesh, stop rolling down you stupid drops of water =/

10:09 PM
Yours truly.

pardon me for that previous post, that was like so random. heh, really lah. everythings okay now, so yea..

oh mann, im like sheet. i logged on to friendster and decided to view lulu's profile, then i realised he really really does have a new special someone. and goodness, werent i shocked. i thought my eyes were playing tricks on me or smth. then i viewed 'her' profile..shes real pretty. that kinda explains why lulu chosed her, shes like soooo much better than me. she even has lulu's photo in her friendster. that pic of lulu was taken the last time we met before we broke up. gosh, i cant believe it..really. im like breaking down any moment. omg, what imma suppose to do now. my mind's like blocked, stuck, my heart almost stop beating just now. awww man... sheeeet me. omgomgomg. my heart feels like someone's stabbing into it every minute. its already torned into pieces, but that someone's still stabbing that knife in. alamak..

7:25 PM
Yours truly.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

i dont like this anymore. and i think i cant tolerate this already. so BAH! i dont know what to say now, im lost for words. its....fcuking urghhh. i mean, why does it always have to be me? so now youre happy cuz you finally managed to find your group of friends, when its only there you find your own sense of belonging. i know how nice it feels like, i really do. but dont you find it unfair towards me? when youre with them, youre like so with them and everything you do is with X. so therefore, i kinda got used to it. i flowed.. and when we're all together, you pretend like nothings wrong. you jolly well can go act for some drama shows or whatsoever. but i really cant pretend that everything's alright. and when its left with us, you throw me aside&stick to X, again. like WTF?! ok la Z, goodbye lah k. TAKECARE. ive had enough.

9:11 PM
Yours truly.

Monday, July 24, 2006

school started late today and i think everyone lovessss it. heh, mac this morning was WOAH. totally filled with whitleyians. sweetheart&i carry the same bag to school and i think its cool cuz both the bag&people are pretty. -smiles-

i had fun today! played basketball&soccer after school and i had sooo much fun irritating nicholasheemingzhi. LMAO. everytime i think of that particular expression, i laugh like a total idiot. damn! (: thanks people, i had funnnnn!

i think im like super complacent. and im so not in the mood to settle down for n levels now. but i dont know why, really. urgghhh..i must really start my revisions. i detest myself for being so uber lazy lah. everytme i place the books infront of me, i feel like damn nua/sleepy. hahahaha. aiyo eh..howhowhow? bah!

yay, theres tuition tmr! science science science. ive decided, the more i detest the subject. the more i shall interact and understand it. go go go! (: and doudou's gettting me the haivanas(im so ashame i dont know hoe to spell the brand properly) slippers next week. butbutbut! ill have to scrimp&save for his pony shoes cuz he wants it before festpiel. heh, its alright! ill try my best.-loves.

oh! it was sis py's birthday yesterday. i totally forgot about it, im sooooo sorry =/ but i wished you today, a belated one thou. paiseh ah..you cant blame busy people(: alrighty, so long&goodnight world!

8:46 PM
Yours truly.

Sunday, July 23, 2006

dragon boat yesterday was alright i guess, except for the teamwork&co-operation. cuz they rj people werent even counting. moreover, we took the bigger boat and theres like 18 of us there. the front was counting so softly we(people at the back) couldnt hear a thing. the people in the middle(rj people) cant even count together? bravo lah, mentors somemore. go kill yourself can.

enough about the dragon boat, damn spoiler lah. bah!

we had lunch at kfc then we headed all the way to queensway to buy bags. paully happily bought her pony bag first. at first i was still in search of my bag. then, i decided to take a look at the nike bag sweetheart&i saw that day. AND, i fell in love with it. so i got that! -smiles- damn happy lah! paiseh ah, make all of you guys walk about queensway shopping centre quiet a few times. i also damn shag can. hahaha. but thanks alvinna! thank yous to all of you who accompanied me there(:

we headed for fishhead curry near bugyee's house. stupiddddddd, they stole my phone again. haha, i didnt realise till we were about to leave. heng ah.. lucky never lose it. then sweetheart said she wanta come down find us. then we headed for some basketball! wheee(: thats the best part lah. so fun so fun so fun! they drank kaka and i drank sprite. didnt feel like drinking and besides, i was enjoying basketball so much then suddenly ask me drink, abit not right eh. oh wells, then sweetheart hurt her tweeny weeny smallest shortest weakest finger. so we headed back to bugyee's house. then we settled down for a while and headed back home(: if it werent for you guys, i wouldnt have so much fun. so yea, THANK YOU! -lovesloves-

-yayness- we're allowed to go school late tmr. like 9plus, so we're meeting up for breakfast then school(: see ya hons! im off to study already.

7:19 PM
Yours truly.

Friday, July 21, 2006

doudou finally called last night. -smiles- we chatted for almost an hour, he told me some stuffs. and bah! okok, may the both of you last. as long as possible. and weixiaobao, please treat your girlfriend nicely. spend more time with her&dont ever, ever ignore her or smth. ive learnt my lesson, or maybe, you learnt yours too.

at first, i really didnt believe what i heard.
then i re-confirm, again. yet again.
i fell into total silence, deep thoughts.
then one told me its over, no point thinking so much.
i know&understand that its all over between us.
yet, its hard for me to let go just like that.
i dont know why but i just cant, really.
ive never felt like this before.
that kinda feeling, so near yet so far.

nehnehpoke, i really dont know what else to do already. any suggestions people? =/

i looking forward to tmr! cuz theres dragon boat in the morning and ill be buying my bag after that! -yayness- (:

God, i pray that he'll forget about asking me out next week. i'd rather he never talk to me again. the more we interact, the deeper i fall. the more i get updated of his life, the more i wanna go back to where we were. i'd much wanta stay as it is now. but allow me to know when he's facing some probs he cant solve, or when he needs help. cuz ill wanna pray for him and bless him like i did that night. and i didnt regret making that prayer cuz i got answered, he was alright the next day(: i also hope that he's girlfriend would very much care for him, understand him, be there for him whenever he needs someone to be there.

if i dont stop now, i never will. cuz the list'll go on and on and on. hmmm, goodnight world!

10:58 PM
Yours truly.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

hello moto! i had FUN today.great thanks to sweetheart&bugyee. -smiles- we cancelled tuition today. cuz alvinna dont feel like going, navinna has tamil oral, bugyee&i dont feel like going. sorry qingaide): i know youre trying real hard to improve yet we cancelled tuition. sorry, last time already. i promise, kay?

sweetheart&i went bugyee's house and kept shouting like some siao charbos. -laughs- sweetheart was the one who started all the screaming&shouting okay, not me. i dont know why we kept shouting POHEE! POHEE! POHEE! hahahaahahahahaha. damn funny la. and stupid bugyee secretly poured some wine into my coke, i drank a mouthful cuz i was thirsty from all the shouting&laughing. nehneh. then we went j8! we took neoprints! damn kuku lah. -laughs- had sooo much fun(: -lovesloves-

alright, i forgot what i wanta blog about already. bah): ciaos!

9:51 PM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

yay! i love this new skin(: -smiles-

went out with bao, weewee, michelle&paully after school today. hung out at tpy's entertainment. err, we had fun! hahaha. and we took lotsa photos, shall upload them when weewee sends them to me online. lovesloves.

actually we were supposed to do our art after school today, but both miss chin&miss wu werent around. so yea, sweetheart, paully, steph&i got ourself some stupid excuses to let our hair down and just have fun today! sweetheart went finding bugyee&gang and they went for the maths remedial while the three of us had fun! -laughs-

and i so dislike naresh when he pinches me la. wtfwtfwtf. the worst thing is, the pinches ALWAYS leave blueblacks on my arms): most of the time, he bullies me cuz navinna asked him to. like wtf? -pouts-

the happy thing is: ALVINNA'S BUYING ME A BAG FOR MY BIRTHDAY. wheeee(: so sweetttt, aint it? thanks in advance! unlike that heartless doudou. he's my kor but he didnt even like wish me happy birthday. what the fcuk la. nehnehpoke.

oh! i think louis's surprised how i get to know his wei xiao bao nickname. LMAO. i dont know why i didnt that but i guess i just wanted him to reflect la. i dont wanta see him as a flirt. and i know he's not one. but he's acting like one! so i really really wwanna let him know im aware of the wei xiao bao thing so he'll go think of why he's doing all these.

hmmm. english commom test tmr! thou its not gonna affect my N levels, i still wanna pass la. which nehneh idiot would wanna fail when they can pass? right?
okok, ciaos! (:

10:15 PM
Yours truly.

Monday, July 17, 2006

wheeee(: a gazillion thanks to all those who wished me happy birthday. not forgetting those who celebrated it for me! special thanks to: qingaide, bugyee, paully, sweetheart, pamela, meieng, fels&weiling. thank you sooooo much. -smiles- i dont know what else to say, im so thankful for this bunch of people. they made my 16th birthday a really memorable one. many many loves, <3>

alrighty, ALOT of people wished me happy birthday today and as a result, im a happy girl! the bestest thing was, lulu wished me! first thing in the morning somemore eh.. shiok lah. -screams- haha. and he asked me out! wheeee(: hmmm. actually ive got alot more to update about. the celebration, the process, the details. but my mum's waiting to use the com, so yea. ciaos! and andand, i love ALL OF YOU. yes, all you pretty girls(: -lovesloves- oh, doudou didnt wish me thou. he boxim ah!

8:20 PM
Yours truly.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

hello! -waves- im counting my blessings and i lost count, cuz there was too much to be counted(: imma happy girl! -smiles- my cousins celebrated my birthday for me, in advance. didi, dajie, jeremy korkor, granny, uncle, daddy, mommy, kor&his gf. wheee(: now tell me how can i not be a happy girl? how blessed can i be(: haha, took some photos but have yet to upload them. another day i guess.

oh! went for dragon boat today. it was FUN! -beams- i cant really get enough of it. and i think its an interesting sport! #1:you dont get capsized. #2:slippers are allowed. #3:you get tanned as well! #4:teamwork. -laughs- see..so many advantages lah! oh, hunks! heh. just kidding, but almost all of them there have abs. *drools. muahahaha. now, i cant wait for the next dragon boat session on sat!

doudou called last night. he told me about lulu. damn, aint that heart-aching. im super affected now. sighs, feels like i dont know lulu anymore. he's a changed person now. and after hearing those, i felt really cheap. aiyo eh, i dont know how to explain lah. and guys, jerks. period.

11:24 PM
Yours truly.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

hmmm, i think the font from the previous post is super small. but nehmind lah. im lazy to edit=/

today was alright, had maths tuition. learnt smth. err, not exactly. maybe i should put it this way. i revised smth,haha! like ive said in the previous post, i returned EVERYTHING back to my teachers already. my brain's all rusty now. -shakeshead- ive got less than two months before the papers. to be exact, seven weeks more ONLY. bah! mugmugmug. cheryl, youve got to start studying already. mugmugMUG! you dont wanna retain, do you? jiayoujiayouJIAYOU! press, press, keep pressing on! (:

paully's damn sweetttt. she named me as her beloved eh! awww, im sooo touched! -smiles- loves(:
and papadam doesnt likes me lah. haha, its all misunderstanding. haha, thou ive got no proof, yet. ill find one! ill proof to you&steph that you'all thinking too much. no such things, and i dont like him either. so, yea. haha.

im thinking of changing a new blogskin, but i just cant find a suitable one. err, actually i neh really go search lah. heh, lazy mah. hmmm, i hope lizz's come out with a skin for me soon! but the exams are near): oh wells!

i cant think of other stuffs to blog about already. i duh wanna think about those unhappy stuffs already lah. so, yea... SO LONG&GOODNIGHT! (:

9:39 PM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

my dearest alvinna, HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY! (:
i know the pic's really blur, but alvinna's camera-shy! loves. oh, sorry alvinna, we couldnt celebrate your birthday): paiseh ah. but i promise we'll make it back! -evilaughs- ill make sure you get poked sixteen times! muahahaha.

wheeee(: i finally started painting! muahahaha. im damn happy lah, but i know my painting skills kinda suck. bah! so? hmph, its my first attempt and i think its good enough. so dont you any poodle/bitch come insult me of my artwork. nehnehcheebye. i hate you girls lah, i really do. laugh, flirt, play, insult, disturb, bitch around, laugh at people. thats all you losers do at school right? fcuking irritating eh. chaocheebye.

BAH!

i stayed back in school till around 6pm today. whoa, late huh? heh! but i had fun lah. and i seriously think miss wu cant quit an art teacher already. i/we dont need her anymore. the school's fine with just miss chin, shes already good enough. miss wu's only there to bring us down, humiliate our works, what for? nehnehpoke):

wah sheet. nabei. okok, i should stop procrastinating! hmmm, this week's gonna be a busy one. so far, it has been one. hurrr. oh! i cant wait for dragon boat this saturday! -beams- so exciting lah, we're all gonna get tann together(:

9:56 PM
Yours truly.

Monday, July 10, 2006

-yayness- italy won france! haha, but i lost in the bet): but its alright! oh, im so into alessandro del piero7' now(: so cute lah! okok, now the soccer fever's over. time to mugmugmug.

i had english oral today. alright lah but i think i kinda screwed it up): i skipped and mumbled some words. infact, alot. hurr, die lah. but anyways, heng benja and all the rest were there. all talking cock, tryin to make each other cool down abit. heh, i laughed like a total siao charbo. so unglam lah, but who cares? (:

prelims are REALLY near. saw that? REALLY NEAR. haha, cant afford to waste time anymore. and my art, i think the canvas's gonna rot if i still dont touch them. boo, i think theres not enough time to paint already. i havent even finish transferring my layout to it lah. cheeboksai. and my studies, all those maths formulas. i think ive totally returned them to the teachers. damn, thinking about how i chiong maths during mid-yrs. it was insane lah. spent soooo much time on maths can. then now like all gone, wasted. sighs.

michelle damn funny lah. damn! her 'hello'&'byebye'. lmao! should have seen the action mann! -laughs- shes uber cute i tell you. and im gonna get my revenge tmr! -evillaughs- steph,paully&jas really make me qidai for my coming birthday. im wondering what they'll get me.. the pony bag? or smth else? heh, no matter what it is. LOVESLOVES. <3>

8:24 PM
Yours truly.

Saturday, July 08, 2006

hello you pretty lil' thangs! -smiles-

was feeling pretty pissed just now. but felt aloootttt better after meeting bugyee&qingaide. we went for dinner at j8 and settled down at coffee bean for some mochas&mudpies(: heh,the mocha was nice! so there, we started all our bitching. haha, wasnt bitching to be exact. aiya, but really enjoyed the talks. thanks hons! -lovesloves- and ill never exchange you guys for anything else. too precious to be sacrificed lah. thou the tallest&skinnest is the dumbest and the shortest one's the dumb one, i still love you guys all the same(: lets try our best to stay the same aye? bugyee, cannot throw qingaide&me away eh! we invested sooo much on you! -laughs-

im gonna study with paully, bugyee&qingaide tmr! prolly alvinna too. hmmm, i hope it'll be a fruitful one(: N levels are really near, prelims! -screams-

and now, i hope i wont see you tmr. never ever will i wanna bang into you or whatever. bah!

11:40 PM
Yours truly.

helllooooo! i stayed over at godparent's place last night. supposingly went there for dinner but ended up staying there. heh, it was alright lah. except for the indigestion after i had lunch with paully at sakae sushi. =/ whoa, the feeling was damn sheeetty can. aiyo eh, i also dont know how to explain. but i felt like ill puke any moment.

and i texted lulu last night! hmmmm, no conclusion yet. or maybe, never. i swear im so gonna give up if he still continues avoiding. its so tiring, i said i wouldnt make the first move anymore. but still, i kinda did. then i dont even get replies. i mean its like wtf lah? stupid lulu, youve no idea how much that reply meant to me. and so, like always, you ignored): bah!

im meeting paully to study tmr. amk, ave1o. bwahahaha! i swear i didnt decide on the place, paully did(: ahlibaba, i hope ill miraculously bang into him or smth tmr(: now, see what i mean when people say love is blind? i know i ought to give up having any hopes or whatsoever. but i cant, just cant lah. and im so gonna bet on the soccer matches tmr! i want/hope italy would win. cuz i dont like france! andandand, im so gonna wake up to watch the final game. -beams-

shucks, i totally forgot ive got english oral on monday! diediedie, im scared. =/ i pray that ill pass, amen(: hohoho.

4:28 PM
Yours truly.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

wheeee(: new skin! heh, and thanks qingaide for helping me out with the haloscan again. =/

oh anyways! its the weekend already. haha, for me lah. cuz i wont be going school tmr. hohoho, both daddy&mommy allow me to pon. so nehmind! (:

hmmm. i wanna thank wenzi! thanks a gazillion for being there for me last night. felt a lil better after telling you what happened and also, thanks for all those advices. ive actually heard them from my hons too, but its hard lah. and so nice of you to update my dairy ah. my dear wenzi cum yingyang finger victim(: -lovesloves-

this week's been alright. but didnt touch mucha art cuz we cant stay back after school due to the teachers having some course lah. cheeboksai, im real worried for art lah. okay nehmind, dont talk about that. boo):

i think its really nice of steph&paully to like take turns and sit with me alternately. appreciate it lots thou. but i just dont want them to do that. cuz its like firstly, theyre supposed to be seated together. secondly, i duh want like either of them to be alone. aiya, i think im super contradicting lah. but its okay, ill sacrifice(: hohoho, really lah. i dont mind. errr, prolly when i feel veh alone then i let you guys know, kay?

i chatted with lulu last night. online lah. and guess what? he misses me eh! wheeeeee(: haha. actually i wasnt really happy when he told me that. cuz i was thinking what if we get back together again? will i be the one being hurt at the end of the day again? will i be the one giving and not receiving again? will i be the one always making the first moves again? spot all those 'agains'. haha. yea, but still i like you(: sometimes i was hoping that we could turn back time and go back to where we used to be. im always telling myself i can get used to life without you, but sometimes its really hard. and im always being reminded of the times we had together. how great ah.

andrew sang! -laughs- we were on the phone and he started singing jia gei wo&superwoman. hahaha, damn funny. and the stupid thing was, i sang along with him. lmao! the funniest thing is, i sometimes still cant recognise andrew on the phone. cuz besides being a pretty boy, he's got a pretty voice too(:

11:07 PM
Yours truly.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

woooooooo(: italy2-0germany. congrats!!! heh, ive got a new eye candy. del piero7' -beams- oh, im off to prepare myself for school!

5:48 AM
Yours truly.

presenting..my pretty boy! andrew lim jun kit(:

5:00 AM
Yours truly.

hohoho. im watch the match now, germany vs italy! its already 60mins and the score's still 0-0. boring la! i so miss argentina): bah!

4:18 AM
Yours truly.

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

hello people! -waves- im really tired today. heh, dont know why lah. feeling veh nua eh. and today's a really bad day. really bad):

ive got so many things to say but i dont know how to convey them. sighs): ill update again soon.

8:02 PM
Yours truly.

Monday, July 03, 2006

i went out with mommy today. didnt buy lotsa things but was really tired thou. but the happiest thing is, im really gonna get my ipod soon! -beams- and i cant wait! should be getting the 1gb one. but if possible, ill wanna get the 2gb one instead. yea, so that i can store more songs&pics inside mah..heh! woooooo(:

bah! but the cheebaku thing is argentina's outta world cup already): no more messi): -pouts- the more stupid thing is, both england&brazil lost! like wtf lah! urghhh, now i needa find other reasons/motivation to watch soccer already. hmmm, i think i support germany&italy now. since all my favs are gone. boooooooo):

tmr's school already. and i hate tuesdays. cuz i have double humans first thing in the morning. then triple art. and followed by double maths&double chinese! nehnehpoke, then after that i have tuition at 3pm. tiring eh! cheeboksai.

ohoh! ive got a few new vocabs! but now i gotta go for dinner already. update you guys some other time(:

7:13 PM
Yours truly.