im back from the chalet!! and the highlight of the day is........
SUNFLOWERRRRR! mich gave it to meeeeee! :D:D:D

im back with very limited pics!! took very little pics as compared to the previous yr thou. Fyi: i didnt even need to charge my cam's battery for the whole of 10days. yes, its that little. but i think i have more photos la, just that its scattered everywhere.

the heading explains it all! myrakeh, we both know why! (: had so much fun catching up, planning for our Bangkok trip next yr, laughed at our silly acts, reminisce about the times we spent at Adrian's with jez & benja but eventually we all didnt do well enough(HAHA), the kebabs and meepoks, the every sunday myrakeh tries to wake me up for tuition but mission fails like 90% of the time. i dont know why i can still wake up after tuition's over and go down Dhoby to meet her every sunday hahaha muah huiyu loves sihui to the maxxxxzxzx(x infinity)

the girls should be enjoying their time in St James now!

and i havent started packing yet. haha i think im like the queen of procrastination or smth cuz i'm leaving for the airport in about 24hrs time? flight's at 6.45am but we've to reach airport like 4.30 so we're gonna ton there overnight! should be taking the last public transport there but i really truly hope my macho brother in the room right beside me will be a soul kind enough to send me to the airport so i dont have to carry my stuff walking on the streets/waiting for buses!

my bio clock's screwed. my arms and butts are aching from ystd's cycling. Fyi: we cycled all the way from East Coast to camelot la! took us about 40mins to reach there. my butts went numb and i have blisters on my palms due to the constant cycling haha but it was funny.

oh, i think my face only appeared in about 3pics last night. 2 with cca and 1 with the bday girl. i dont know, i think im pretty wierd sometimes. i tend to slide away from crowds like that and prefer to be in my own world. the funny thing is, i know everyone there. i realised smth else too, i build walls. walls so defensive and maybe, really invisible since no one notices it haha.

people dont even realise it sometimes. i think i have a lot of questions to answer to myself. thou i dont know exactly what questions, i just feel that way. im turning into a wierdo :/ i dont even blog like how i used to anymore bcuz as much as this is my private space, people read and they judge. being the insecure person i've always been(still am), im afraid of being judged. so yea, there you have it.

i dont know my plans later, i dont know what i wanto do. i shall wake up at whatever time i deem and proceed my day to do anything i feel like doing.

yep, im back! haha had fun with baoyi korkor's aunties and cousins they're like so funny! i laughed my 2days 1night away! i miss the dry meehoonkway alrd! i actually miss her cousins cuz they're like entertaining, in a way. glad they're coming over this weekend. i hope i can go steamboat with them on sunday! (if i manage to finish packing my stuff hahaha)

things i remember doing there:
sleep on bus rides
eat
anyhow spend money
laugh a lot
ate a lot of NanoNano(i bought 2 packets back by the way)
talked to baoyi(korkor) at the stairs while she pollutes
hear frogs make sounds(i forgot the word for that)
saw a lot of stray dogs(omgz!!! :/)
ate A&W, like finally
ate some jelly liked sour ice cream
lao sai-ed
sushi-ed
bought a batman tee!!
my contact lense teared(inside my eye!! i thought i was going to turn blind, seriously but thank god i survived)
got discount for the solutions cuz the person said im pretty( HAHAHAHAHA)
didnt reply a single text/call(omgz, perserverance la please!)
ate a lot of ikan bilis ( heehee i like!!! :D)


hmmm i think thats about it. if theres any other stuff(high possibility) i missed out, which there should be but i cant seem to recall enough now, i'll update again heh heh. oh oh! baoyi korkor and i travelled back alone! hahaha we made it omgz we didnt get lost la! but i guess in between we felt kinda lost inside. like duh?! who wont be? both of us travelling alone, first timers somemore. its so much more than dangerous but thankfully we're back safe and sound! (: thankyou baoyi korkor, for all the fun and laughter you guys have given me, i enjoyed!!! :D:D:D


TODAY!
paulineoh and stephanielee came over to bake muffins for the fabulous(cuz im going!) people who're going to be at the bbq tmr!! and after witnessing the outcome of the muffins, its quite a success! :D they're pretty tasty you know cuz i added a lot of ingredients hahaha i have smth for banana plus chocs, i think they make a really good pair! yummmmm i wanto eat my share tmr! anyways, i hope we'll have fun! if all goes well, i should be returning with lotsa pics to share! :D

back from pre-camp last night! but was too tired i went to bed after tomyam maggie mee and with my cucumber eye pads hahaha. thank god i set alarm for it to ring after 15mins so i cant get rid of the cucumbers and go to bed comfortably (:


wento granny's place this afternoon and all i did was eat eat and more eating. its like the moment i finished watching my hk drama i started having lunch and never stopped eating till i got home. and mom re-heated the stuff grandma cooked so i ate again cuz she prepared my share hahaha. yes, i practically ate the whole day! now i feel as good as an over pumped ball that can explode anytime! ):

im going to Malacca with poh tmr! its only a 2days 1night thing thou. cuz she needs to come back Sgp to settle log stuff and i need to settle welfare stuff too. i havent packed yet! haha i wonder if she did. thank god cuz we're following Aj's coach to Malacca, her church's having some camp there. that lessens our percentage of getting lost! and i really do hope we won't get lost on our way back to Sgp cuz both of us are doing this for the first time. she always travels with her family and i havent been to Malacca with her before! so, bless us!

correction,
it hurts the most when no matter how hard you try, it feels like it doesnt matters anymore. and sometimes, i dont know how to deal with this. i feel so much like giving up but i know how it feels like for people to receive me at the end cuz i was dumped into that shithole time and time again.

now, i need to get these off my head. pre-camp's tmr and i'm in-charged. what the heck. get rara! i need to be rara! i got to throw my stupid retarded emotions/feelings/thoughts or whatsoever into the drain right beside my house and pick them up when im on my way home on sat.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

when it hurts giving, i tell myself i cannot be pleasing everyone at the same time cuz its impossible. when it hurts not receiving what i gave, i tell myself my time will come someday. but when it hurts bcuz i'm never the receiver, i tell myself to stop trying so hard. maybe it'll start coming if i give up.

had a happyhappy dinner with my babes, curryfishhead! our all-time fav! :D:D:D (heh heh myrakeh, are you jealous yet?) and we threw the eye away, cuz no one else eats the eye except myrakeh. she always says it good for eyesight or smth(i wonder if its true thou! hahahaha)

then i had icecreammmmmmm and we sat by the playground, i played with the mini marygoround and we talked about how old we are alrd(hahaha) then ceeceelia wanted to sheet so we went up to poh's house and watched weixiaobao and read the papers.

so i was on my way home happily, i was crossing the road and i saw.....

THAT JERK WHO CHEATED MY FEELINGS. he is prolly the only real jerk i've ever known in my whole 18yrs. bloody idiot. i cannot stand the sight of him, the instant i saw him, i turned away. maybe deep down inside, i was afraid of facing that wound again but whatever it is, he is not what i would wanto keep in my memory. i shall delete him away this very instant. wait, i think i still have his number in my hp, wth. screw him, really. >:(