benny's turning sixteen tmr! thou you wont be gettting to see this but, HAPPY ADVANCED 16TH BIRTHDAY(!!!) im ultimately broke, so no presents this year. besides, i dont know if we're still on cold war cuz we aint talking anymore. yea but enjoy&have fun! -lovesloves- i seriously hope everything'll be fine. i hope we'll talk soon. i hope ill be able to give you morning calls everyday. hohohoho. ahlibaba, please grant me what i hoped for(:

hello people! be so proud of me cuz i finally cycled(!!!) yes, you eyes arent playing tricks on you. I CYCLED. with the constant encouragement&help from my two dear friends, i finally did it(: i hereby wanta thank them. qingaide: thank you soooo much. if it wasnt for all your 'cheryl!dont look down', 'you can do it! yes, youre doing veh good!' i think i wouldnt have made it. really, and it was really fun seeing you cable-ski. an addition, we've got GREAT eye-candies! -laughs- shawn/sean&the 'tantan' guy. wheeee(: really had fun today. thank you so much babe, loves(: alvinna: thanks a gazillion too! i know youre really tired but you still came(: hmmm, thanks for those encouragements too! and of course, excorting me through the crowd. heh, thank you sooo much boy! hope your feets are feeling better now, loves(: oh, sucha pity bugyee didnt come. cant really blame her either, she didnt sleep the night before. so yea. but alvinna super! super alvinna(: hohoho. took quite a few pics too. but i havent uploaded them. so yea, will post it up some other time(: for my hons; 7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME: -i swear too much. -i throw tantrums like a three yr old kid at home. -imma colourful person. meaning, ive got lotsa favourite colours. -i forgive but never forgets. -i can cycle already(!!!) i still like louis lah. -i cramp like crazy when i have periods&my mood swings from east coast to pasir ris. -laughs- 7 THINGS THAT SCARES ME: -ghostly stuffs. -bursting&twisting of balloons.(dont laugh at me) -being in the dark alone.(except sleeping lah) -being too gullible. -kenna PS. -animals.(not all kinda lah) -insects&all kinds of stupid flies. 7 RANDOM SONGS AT THE MOMENT: -rihanna:unfaithful. -the veronicas: when it all falls apart. -daddy yankee:rompe. -the veronicas: im heavily broken. -natalie grant: live for today. -pink: stupid girls. -mi lu bing: shen bian. 7 THINGS I LIKE THE MOST: -the sun! -you hons(: -music.(i cant live without them) -clouds. -shopping. -pretty boys. -eye candies. 7 THINGS I SAY MOST: -nehmind lah. -fcuk. -sheeeettt. -walaoeh. -poke you ah. -die die, i cannot lah. -nabei. 7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS: all those who read this post -laughs-

im gonna fight staying awake till 3am. i so wanna watch the match between netherlands&argentina. alright, i admit. i just wanna see my eye candies(:

i got tagged!

INSTRUCTIONS.1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of his/her perfect lover. 2. Mention the gender of his/her perfect lover. 3. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment at their blogs. 4. If you are tagged the second time, there is no need to do this AGAIN. 5. The most impt rule: have fun doing it.

oh, im straighttttt(:

#1. loves me for who i really am.

#2. have a mind of his own.

#3. great sense of humor.

#4. PEOPLE PERSON.

#5. sensative.

#6. giving.

#7. understanding.

#8. loves shopping!

Name 20 ppl u can think of at the top of your head. Dun read the below questions before you write and tag 5 ppl to do this survey.

1. louis lim long!

2. benson lim siong wee!

3. bugyee

4. qingaide

5. paully

6. navinna

7. sweetheart

8. jas

9. steph

10.carol

11.adam

12.wenzi!

13.weiting

14.huiling

15.kelvin

16.joachim

17.jonathan wong chew kit!

18.alvinna

19.delphine neh

20.matthew he shu ping!

questionaires!
1.How did you meet 14? when i was bornt, shes ma cousin.
2.What would you do if you never met 1? i'd rather die. he's a treasure. a pity its over now):
3.What would you do if 20 and 9 dated? -rofl- abit impossible thou. they dont even know each other!
4.Did you ever like 19? -laughs- i love her to bits!
5.Would 6 and 17 make a good couple? haha. absolute no, unless theyre paths gone crooked.
6.Describe 3. she's one of my essentials. got to know her better in sec3. thou we're not in the same class, we're still as close. has a mind of her own, kinda stubborn but i still love her(:
7.Do you think 8 is attractive? you bet! but too bad, her heart's stolen away by some goon.
8.Tell me something about 7. she's my sweetheart(: oh, she's got all the guys attracted to her. alright, not all. but quite a few.
9.Do you know any of 12's family? i've seen them. his&byes. but dont really like know them.
10.What's 8's favourite? music, shopping, soccer(:
11.What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you? -screams- ill smile and say thank you. hmmm, we cant do much. paully might kill me.
12.What language does 15 speak? chinese and some hokkien. he's one ah beng, according to paully.
13.Who is 9 going out with? some vampire. -laughs- just kidding. liang weizhi(:
14.How old is 16 now? he's old enough for those nc16 shows already, unlike me):
15.When was the last time you talked to 13? when we had bbq that day,13june. we shared a double bike too(:
16.Who's 2 favourite band/singer? i dont know. we havent been talking lately. but he goes for songs rather than bands.
17.Would you date 4? im already doing that! i see her almost everyday(:
18.Would you date 7? why not? she's one attractive babe! -smiles-
19.Is 15 single? yepp, but he's ah beng, liar and he smokes. he lied to me saying he already quit. then paully saw him smoking just that day.
20.What's 10's last name? he shu ping!
21.Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11? hmmmm. we'll see. but i think its gonna take me sometime to get over 1.
22.What school does 3 go to? whitley sec.
23.Where does 6 live? somewhere near novena.
24.Whats your favourite thing about 5? she's my mom!
25. Have you seen no.1 naked? not totally. half naked counted? -giggles-

hmmm. stuck at home on a sunday afternoon. so i decided to do smth! (: ill go search for more tests!

after that huge struggle last night, i kinda managed to numb my feelings for the time being. thank God paully was there for me last night, if not i really dont know who else to turn to. qingaide&bugyee was in camp. tally had to turn in early cuz he has camp today. navinna wasnt back in town yet and alvinna was asleep already. wanted to call jonathan but guess he might he lala land already since he was working yesterday. and doudou? i dont know how to contact him): to you: everytime i decided to really give up, you somehow appear again. this is so sucky can. when i never thought i'd hear from you, you reply my message. i admit i was really excited&happy when i saw your name on my phone screen. at that very moment, i thought we could turn back time, go back to where we used to be. yet, i duh wanna allow myself any hope. fcuk lah, can we just end everything? i hate myself for turning back to you. i hate myself for going weak at the very sight of you/your name/anything that has got smth to do with you. i hate myself for believing in love/you. i hate myself, really. and youre like so irresponsible! if you knew you wont have time for me, why ask me for patch in the first place? and at the end of the day you treat me like fcuk. now youre asking how to be together cuz you dont have time for me and you dont wanna hurt me any deeper. let me tell you this: whats the point lah. youve already hurt me deep enough, deep till i dont feel the pain anymore. so it doesnt really matters if you hurt me more. i hate myself for loving you, i really do. no one's really been in this sheeettt. theres nothing left to say, im heavily broken.

dang, i gotta go back school for the rest of the week): awww, what a draggg =s