stop treating me like an alien! i'm only human, i have feelings too. i cry, i fear, i love, i get hurt, i get angry and all the other emotions. anything that all other human beings can feel of, i feel it too. you have no idea what it feels like being treated like an alien cuz i wont be as mean as you are to treat you the same way you treated me. call me paranoid, i dont really care. but its not my fault that i attract certain kind of people. everyone else attract too. your words, they cut me so hard like the barnicles at the steepway in camelot. the way you look at me or rather, us, makes me feel like im an alien from nowhere. if your purpose is to make cheryl chan feel like an alien, congrats, purposed achieved. so please stop whatever you're doing and go away. i dont need constant reminders that i'm an alien.(cuz im not one!)


AHHHH WHEN WILL ALL OF THESE STOP? WHY/HOW DID IT EVEN STARTED? URGHHH NOW TELL ME, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO PICK UP THE PIECES? I HATE THIS PART! :(

to you:
i feel super betrayed now. maybe a lil pissed. guess i shouldnt have decided to kinda like trust you again or even think of starting things anew cuz right now, at this very moment, i see no bloody point anymore. the more i think of it, the more pissed i get. omgz, freak. come to think of it, i wsa stupid enough to even think that you're finally putting in effort into not taking me for granted. yes, that'll only happen in my dreams. i should have sticked to what the girls(sook,cca,myra) told me the other day. cuz if i did, you wont even have chance to do this to me. we're done.

xoxo(no more)


i've been so stucked in the middle. and then i get thrown away. its like when you need me, you come to me. and when you dont, you simply chuck me aside. wait, why am i even surprised? i should have gotten used to it alrd, gosh. guess what? birds of the same feathers flock together, this is so fucking true. and no, im not in the "birds". maybe i was, but im pretty damn sure im not now. bcuz i dont really like it when she's taken for granted. call me baised, say that i'm with her, whatever. cuz i dont really care anymore. i super cannot stand it when i see people kenna "Eat".

omgz im still fucking pissed and irrite!!!!!!!! >:(

HAPPY CNY EVERYONE!! :D:D:D

look! this is Cocoa! isn't she super cute!!! she became the center of attention the moment biaojie entered granny's with cocoa in her arms! so everyone started taking out their cams(i was one of them haha) or phones or whatever that can capture cocoa and started snapping like crazy. if i was cocoa, i'd prolly thought i was in a crazy photoshoot or smth!

HAPPY HAPPY BELATED 19th BIRTHDAY TUCKY!! :D:D:D


the boys told me its their tradition to eat birthday cakes with the cardboards(from the box the cake was in) so i tried to snatch pics of them eating the cake with the cardboard!



apparently, jon(the gay boy) go kapok spoons from 7-11!! and ben ate from the knife(yes, the one that we use to cut the cake!) anyways, i had fun with the boys! :D :D :D

blsw's POP on 22nd jan! :D


police&theif!


stupid pinbang! dont know how to take picture properly! tsktsktsk. (shakeshead)

heehee, i just came back from tau huay with stubo and pohee :D pohee looked sick(she is), so we sent her home first. i ta bao-ed tau huay and you tiao for korkor but he's asleep alrd. hahaha stubo and i spent time at our "fav" place just now, i loved that place since young, daddy used to bring me there when i was younger. now, stubo brings me there :D

today, i told mom about stubo. i explained about why some people turn lesbians and i fought for their rights. hahaha why am i making myself sound like one now?! ok no, im not, im still straight(i guess so?). i think stubo should stop treating me so nice. we should stop the tau huay sessions and stubo nights. bcuz im finding it harder to get by without stubo and that is not a good thing. was telling her how i would invent a new drug(if i became a doc but i never will) to be injected into people so they detach easily. or pills that can allow one to erase certain people/things from their memory forever. i wish, i wish...


now, im thinking of how people look at stubo and i. i know i shouldnt care about how others think but its inevitable. im super duper curious how stubo sees this(us). she kept mentioning "friends" thou. ohwells, i dont know. all i know is, everytime i start caring for someone genuienly, like really care for friends or whatever, i get hurt(in a way or another).

today is the first(after seeing her consecutively for 10days) day/night i'm not seeing stubo! but she texted me this morning(which woke me up) and then we continued texting for the rest of the day. which then, led to her calling me and we started talking while i was ironing daddy's clothes AND THEN HER PHONE DISLIKE ME SO MUCH THE BATT WAS LOW SO WE HAD TO HANG UP then she texted me and disappeared. haha she's either still at the chalet now or on her way home i guess? sadded, no tau huay tonight :/

anyways! did manicure with steph&lixin in the afternoon! thankfully we found a shop that doesnt require us to queue for our turns hahaha but after we went in, a lot of people started coming in/wanting to make appointments. i think its either me or the poeple around me, everytime we go somewhere or smth like that, subsequently the place will get crowded one. another example would be, stubo called me while i was on 169 with lixin, she was having her smoke break hahaha. then after we hung up, she texted me " stubo! after hanging up the phone, my cafe suddenly got one big group of customers!"


hey sook, i know you'll see this someday. just wanto say that i'm here to provide a listening ear whenever you need me to. and please stop being so persismistic. i know life's not easy, no one ever said it is, whoever did is a liar and i bet their pants have turned into ashes alrd. so bucker up girl! you know you love me, xoxo, cheryl chan (:

been busy with camps lately, been seeing quite a lot of stubo these nights. hahaha stubo and her reckless driving skills/powerful "dictionary". anyhows, i'm really thankful for stubo cuz she has been pretty much fetching me around(who ask her to live near me hahaha :D)

fri night was stubo waiting for me downstairs(while i constipated for 45mins) and then she fetched me to granny's.

last night was stubo going all the way from her house to Thomson to fetch me&myra to tau huay!!! :D:D:D oh Agnes was there too! heh heh heh we had so much fun laughing at her omgz shes like blur to the max! then stubo sent myra home, sent Agnes home and sent me home last cuz i live the nearest to her.

AND TODAY, STUBO LOST HER PHONE. OR RATHER(from what i heard from Esther/fishcake) SHE LOST HER ENTIRE BAG! omgz she must have lost it in Sentosa or smth. tsk tsk tsk, stubo is really stubo.

ogayz, im off to pack my bag and im good to go for CHIJ kellock's camp! :D

oh please pray that i will not constipate again during camp thankyou very nice :D xoxo

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im back from Pioneer sec's camp at Cdens!! :D i had fun with the campers, hope they did too. maybe except the part when i was supposed to scold all of them today, i was forced to, really dont like scolding them cuz i see no point in doing so, but i had to do it anyways.(order given by section Ic :/) ohhhhhhhh and i was the food Ic, with Adumb. due to the constant calls for uncle ben, now when i hear Ben, i straight away think of uncle ben hahahahaha

anyways, as the heading of the post states, im super sleep deprived. only got a total of 6hrs of sleep from the 3days 2nights. the most amazing thing is, myra and i didnt go home after completing the evaluation. instead, we headed to AMK, had lunch, caught "Ponyo on the cliff by the sea", walked over to Amk ave10 to collect some stuff, took bus to Thomson plaza's Starbucks to meet Daryl Loh& Wj, walked over to Prata House for supper( Daryl Loh's treatttt! :D thankyou!!) then home sweet home :D the boys were really sweet enough to offer to carry our super heavy backpacks from camp hahaha, super glad for them (:

MYRA KEH+CHERYL CHAN= SUPER DUPER DOUBLE!! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

ok, i need to go to bed alrd, my eyelids are super heavyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy gnight world!

i wished D didnt have to start talking about that dogg. maybe i shouldnt have asked him how was Timbre last night.

speaking of which, i spoke to Sc last night. i was ranting, literally. but i did share with him about my experience in Cambodia. so like the whole time i was the one talking and he just listens. i wondered if i bored him, he said i didnt. ohwells, who really tells the truth anymore anyways?

the world's a really sad place now, i think. period.

hey maybe im the sad one. and you know what? i should prolly stop blogging cuz no one reads it anyway. and if i happen to post pics, people just look at pics and skip the wordy parts. bcuz maybe, my life is such a bore. or maybe, they're not even the least interested in whats happening and then they pretend like they really care. c'mon, who's butt are you trying to get? cheryl chan's? for god's sake, choose someone else's!

urghhhh must be the effect of the convo with D! >:(

i do not understand why is it that everytime i try to fix smth up, it never succeeds. its like the more i wanto bring things together, the further it drifts.

for dont know what reason, wj and i started taking pictures in the cab hahahaha. like from the moment we got onto the cab, take till we going to alight the cab. he kept insisting that he takes nicer pics but they're all shaky thats why i didnt post them up! hahaha lousy camera man! anyhows, i just had breakie with him not long ago. i think he's prolly in lalaland alrd but im still up&awake :/ this idiot left his hp on the cab's seat after talking to Daryl!! we only realised when we alighted from the cab, when he asked me for his phone. i rumbled thru his Pedro paper bag and eventually took everything out at the roadside, i bet i looked hilarious. the taxis passing by had to "siam" me hahahahaha
Thankfully to the very smart me, i started calling his hp but he had it on silent mode, stupid right he!!! aiya lazy to go into details, but we got his phone back and rewarded the nice uncle 10bucks as tips! ehhh the uncle lucky ok! we gave him tip too when we alighted from the taxi earlier on.

omgz look at Daryl Loh's expression!!! LOL



im back from the countdown/fireworks with the koolest people ever! hahaha i only have a few pics thou, a lot more are with Ned and Nadiah( they snapped a lot of my candid pics la!! :/)





the 3 of us(as of above pic) + NedNedNed headed down to Bishan. pee-ed, dranked teh-o-bing/100plus/copi-bing/Ned ate Laksa at the 24hrs coffeeshop! Wj, Daryl Loh and 2 of their friends came to join us too! we headed to 7-11 to get some stupid lousy vodka and went to the already closed S11 to drink! the 4 stupid guys were almost gone when they met us and i had my fill, laughing at them.

see la, stupid blogger. my post has to be upside down cuz i cant move the pics down! >:(

ogayz, the time now is 7:28AM i need to go have my beauty sleep alrdzxzzxz I HOPE 2009 WILL BE A BETTER YEAR BLESS ME PLEASE K GNIGHT (: