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Monday, January 30, 2006
ill never forget that day. the day i first met you. it didnt felt like i was meeting a friend for the first time. although it was just a few hours, it was good enough. all those lil stuffs you did for me. i appreciate them so much. and i think its simply sweet of you doing that. for the first time in my life, i felt so comfortable and right meeting someone for the first time. at first, i was afraid there might be nothing for us to talk about. but i was so wrong. we had so much in common to talk about. we did and said stupid stuffs. but i dont mind being a fool, as long as youre with me. cuz i know that you'll always be there to stand up for me if someone comes into my way.
-i like the way you block that someone's way when they try to cut my queue.
-i like the way you so fakely slapped me trice that day.
-i like the way you call me stupid.yet deep down inside, you wanted to me to call you stupid instead.
-i like the way you laugh and smile.
-i like it when scold me but yet you didnt mean it.
-i like it when you volunteered to carry my bag for me.
-i like it when you send me all the way home from amk. even if you have to cab back home in the end.
-i like the way you poured that ribena for me.
- i like the way you care for me.
- i even like it when you make me sound like a small kid begging for sweets.
there're so many things i like about you. but the most important thing is, i like you(:
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3:50 PM
Yours truly.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
im so sad. sighs. the wallet i wished for is outta stock everywhere. practically searched the whole of town on sat for it. even dragged everyone along. from pacific plaza to paragon. and from there to heeren and ps. and i still cant get that polka dotted one! so maddening can:(
so so disappointing. mats was like asking me to cool down. and socky kept encouraging me. laguhs. come to think of it, its kinda hilarious. i was sucha meanie that day. made poor edmond walk from one place to another and so on. now people, you know how demanding i can be. laughs. guess i fell in love with that polka dot one the first time i saw it. i really like it alot! but sighs. not more stock. :( anyways, i got the other one. puyi say its nicer but i dont really agree. whatever lah. theres nothing more i can do:) bah~
school was alright today:) finally started some art,which means im not gonna spend three whole hours stoning at the end of the year. but then again, its all too early to foresee.. one more thing!i think our school's dumb. the rules i mean. sooner or later, the students'll just rebel like nobody's buisness. this is so irritating. esp the discipline ones. so unreasonable and stupid. -roll eyes-
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i have so many deadlines to meet. history and maths class test coming up this wed and im still infront of the computer. rar~ i promised mr subra to pass the first humans tests. and ms tan too. i duh wanna disappoint her. but, imma up to it? yes yes! i can do it:) bring it on baby! laughs.
10:53 AM
Yours truly.
Sunday, January 22, 2006
the leadership was so-so. it was the people there who were fun! laughs. had fun last night. -smiles- those water bombing and blowing of candles. haha. but puyi myra jas and i left at night. i know the rest misses us! aww.. hi-tea later. and yay! im buying that wallet today=) i cant wait. -beams- myra's bed is so comfy..make me super 'nua'. laughs. thanks girl! for putting us up at your place last night=) oh oh! mr subra wants to bring me to mongolia may this year. and i wanna go vietnam too! laughs. mr subra:cheryl, im bringing you to mongolia. me: huh? mongolia? haha. | |
1:00 AM
Yours truly.
Thursday, January 19, 2006
okay. this is so sheet can. it hurts like sheet to hear my mom saying all those stuffs. hey mom, youve hit on the bull's eye. happy now? this is like fcuk lah. you dont have to say that you know. its not like i dont know. im utterly sad. utterly utterly hurt. mom, youve hurt me now. mission accomplished?
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10:43 AM
Yours truly.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
yay. got my forth piercing yesterday. the lady didnt pierced it well. but its alright. =) had maths tuition yesterday. all of us were like so high can. umm. okay,except nav lah.
almost got in deep sheet for laughing at a lady. she pushed the door when its supposed to be pull. i know its lame. but we just couldnt help it. my apologies.
school was alright today. ben didnt come school. guess it was my fault again. oh. whats with that pape ball on the floor? laughs. dang! i lost the mood to blog. AGAIN. so long! =)
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5:04 PM
Yours truly.
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
got quite a few stuffs on my wishlist currently. sponser anyone? -beams-
1. roxy polkadot wallet[32bucks]-white leather.
2. roxy polkadot pencilcase[26bucks]
3. a new mp3!
4. that mickey mouse phone!
5. new pair of flats.-mine's wearing out pretty soon.
6. new pair of nice and comfy shoes.
7. more ear piercings!
and the list goes on and on. i can never get contented with the amount of things i already have. and i have no idea.
puyi's house is always the greatest to slack, talk and just simply have fun=) initially felt kinda down. prolly cuz i recalled some unhappy stuffs. yea. but well, i recovered! laughs.
sometimes,i dont know if im just tryin to act up a strong front, or did i really recover? imma that cheerful and bubbly girl that im known for? or imma just hiding all my thoughts behind that mask that im putting on everyday? im feeling so insecure right now. thoughts and memories running through my mind vividly. i realised i havent really quite know myself. but how could this be?
i wasnt like that a few years back. i were just an ordinary girl. leading my life to the fullest everyday. i used to be that girl,who puts on her smile no matter what happens. i wasnt those kinda girl who'd think of so many things. but now. its all so different.
edmond say im rather perceptive. that i think deep. is that a good thing or a bad one? i guess im having all these thoughts cuz the people and things around me have been constantly reminding me to not be so complacent in life. and yea,i know it. but sometimes when everything just seem to be at the wrong path, everyone seem so together except me. when i felt like a total outcast, i just wanna give in to the devil. i know i should stand strong in faith no matter what happens. i know i ought to fight that war with the devil to rise up to a higher level. but God, do you know how hard it is for me? how difficult things are for me every now and then? how i pray but my prayers dont get answered?
i treated you like a vending machine when i know i wasnt supposed to. i commit my sins before you and you forgave me. but why are my prayers always left unanswered? at that moment, i thought youre gonna cut off the string that was tieing us together. yet when the world came crashing down at me, you came to my rescue. you salvaged me. you left me all confused and lost.
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im falling to my knees.i need you lord to breathe in me.my prayer is still the same.my heart is calling out your name.
12:01 PM
Yours truly.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
tell me. why do i always feel that you dont care. is it cuz its so obvious you dont care or imma just being way too sensative. you dont even bother to say 'HI'. its not that difficult loh. many a times, i tried deceiving myself. i thought i was thinking too much. now, even the people around me feels that you dont care. tell me, what imma to do now?
school was okay today. the teachers came and all said the similar stuffs. yea. and i am aware that i gotta study hard now. i know this sounds kinda 'kiasu'. but! i duh wanna be in that kinda situation as i was. so sheety can.
headed down to reach after school. did the scrapbook thing. that was when the thoughts came running through my mind. sighs. i should have known it better. i should have expected this to happen. i should have done so many things. but at that time, all i knew was to run away. i didnt know any better. i really didnt. i dont like to be stuck in this state. i wouldnt say im screwed. i would say im confused.
reality always hit me so hard in the face. so hard. i cant even breathe. now,im totally lost. i guess i ought to learn how to face it. at least, its better than running away from it. sighs.
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10:38 AM
Yours truly.
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