Wednesday, September 06, 2006
boooo. i need so much not to be alone. &sometimes i really dislike B. sometimes i find it soooo hard to talk to him about the thoughts or feelings i have, sometimes its even hard to tell him how im feeling. i feel uber rotten now can. like sheeeeetttt luh! walaoeh, i dont know lah, i thought we'll be able to talk or smth. i wanted so much to tell someone about what happened today. but obviously, to no avail. not that i duh wanna let the others know but its like, sometimes, i just dont feel like talking too much.
oh&i hate myself cuz ive been breaking those promises i made to myself like months&days ago. boyscangoeatshitluh. wah...i dont know lah. i really dont know what to do. plus, its examination period now. i should be focusing my all on studies. rather than some sheetboy. BAH!):
im feeling so rotten now, so rotten~
oh which earthling knows how i feel, no one really does.
rottenrottenrotten, thats how im feeling right now.
make me feel better someone..oh please.
(pardon me for that)
damn, i think im nuts luh! or did i read too much of the mates blah blah blah book? gosh, cuz the isobel(the girl in the book)is always composing songs about how she's feeling&things like that. hurr, yea i think i got influenced or smth. but its pretty nice to compose your thoughts&feelings into a song. cuz the lyrics'll be super meaningful!
oh no. two(qingaide&orhorh) idiotic but love of my life&i were talking on our way to tuition today. &orhorh said im gullible(or did you say that last night?) anyways, orhorh said people takes advantages of me cuz they know im nice to be bullied. FYI: almost everyone i know bullies me luh! how pathetic's that? ok back to the topic, i dont mind being bullied once in a while or what lah. but i dislike it when people bully me in terms of treating me like sheet. taking me for granted. picking up& throwing me away as and when they like. look for me only when they need help/favour. throws me away when i needed someone to rant at. scolds me when im only a teeny weeny bit at fault. despite ALL these, i still loved her as my friend. but she's letting me down by treating me like trash): double BAH!
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oh, i almost missed this.
HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN MY DEAREST JASMINEWEECHINGYEE. (:♥
9:42 PM
Yours truly.