Life's a maze, and love is a riddle

Monday, June 12, 2006

i just figured out that i cant really let go, yet. its too much to forget. moreover, the first one. dont worry cheryl, you can do it! (:

#1: daddy&mommy allowed me to ton tmr! -yayness- and it not like i argued with them for permission or what, they allowed me to okay. wheeee(: i should really learn how to count my blessings. -beams-

#2: i went back to school for art today. and i did quite some drawings, be proud of me okay! im just plain lazy but i forced myself outta bed at 0815 on a monday morning. my brain didnt quite rest. it was running like mad last night. the moment i slept, i kept on dreaming. sigh, that explains how come im still veh tired even thou i slept like 10plus last night(:

#3: i think im getting my ipod soon! heh. maybe it wont be an ipod but a new mp3 will be good enough(: i cant wait for my birthday(!!!) hohoho.

aiya, im really tired. mentally,physically&emotionally. but still, im gonna recharge my batteries and enjoy to the fullest tmr! awww, i miss doudou alottttt): call me call me, come come give me a call! -rofl-

booooooooooo): i think my future's a bleak. i really havent yet thought of my future, ive been too emotional dealing stuffs. infact, i put in emotional feelings into almost everything i deal with and i dont know why. i shouldnt be doing that right? i shouldnt be too emotional, right? i should have learnt to see things from different perspectives. i should have not jump to conclusions anyohow. i shouldnt have put in so much effort into smth i know wont blossom. i should have known that. i should have some reflection long time ago. i should have learnt to let go sometime ago; i shouldnt have gotten so attached to just anyone. i should have known all these..if only i knew all these way before they happen, i wouldnt have gotten myself into sucha state. i wouldnt have sucha huge heartlost now. i wouldnt have to be sucha 'sanba'. only if i knew all these, i could have prevented that deepest cut. alright, heres smth to cheer myself up(:

how innocent(: i wish i could still be like her.

10:20 PM
Yours truly.